Light Bulb

Yesterday was a horrible day. I was tired, grumpy, and had a huge final exam to take after work. Which by the way, was terrible. Not just terrible as in oh, I think I missed a few questions. Terrible as in I missed a few sections. One of those tests where you are taking it and you actually consider all the horrible things you would rather do than to finish taking the test (cut off your arm, run 10 miles, die, get kung-fu-karate-chopped, etc). I was completely prepared to start wailing and cry for my entire hour drive home. Instead, I thought to myself: Self, you can't do anything about it now. It is done. Now turn up your music, sing, and jam out like crazy all the way home, and when you get home, this experience is done, no more thinking about it. (shocker, I know! no cursing? no yelling at other drivers? no calling 3 people to tell them about the most horrifying previous 2 hours that was taking that exam?) It was like an out of body experience. Who knew I could survive without expressing all of that rage? I didn't.

Aside from still being tired, I felt great this morning! Don't get me wrong, it still totally sucks that I completely bombed that exam and most likely dropped a letter grade in that class. But no stomach ache, no being irritated all morning because I'm still upset about it, no Mr. Grumpy Gills. They do say that you can't change other people/things, only your reaction to them. Ding! Light bulb. I get it now. What good does it do for me to be upset for 3 days? In the grand scheme of my life this is not that major (pretty hard statement to say/type, considering I tend to overreact, blow things out of proportion, yell/scream/curse on a fairly regular basis). But it is true. And what a much better way to go through life! Here's hoping it sticks. I'm hoping for the best anyway.

Especially considering I just remembered the two drivers I cursed at on the way to work this morning. But hello! They deserved it.